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[Dec. 30th, 2006|02:31 am] |
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Stupid fucking people piss me off. But then again, to some people I may appear to be a "Stupid fucking person". I really am not, Im just a outspoken person. Usually when I see something that bothers me or pisses me off, I will say something about it. If this is wrong, and if Im dumb for doing this, well then fuck off. I dont need your opinions. I hate women, period. Some are better than others, but at the root... every woman is evil. If me speaking my mind at shows or whatever is a problem, or you see it as stupid shit that Im addressing... fuck you too. IDK, just fuck everyone. Fuck this, fuck everything. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2006|01:53 am] |
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| | Boondocks in the background | ] |
Today was amazing. AMAZING. But the second I got home I got into a bad mood. You know blah blah blah, the same old dried out horse shit everyone writes about on here. But I am UBER depressed lately, about everything. I think I can hide it pretty well, but meh. I hate growing up, I hate not knowing whats going on in my future. My friends Joe and Ashley are getting married on Saturday and Im not invited to the wedding. Im invited to the reception, but not the wedding.. which is fuckin balls. Im just upset because Sarah is going to both... and I've known both of them longer than she has. But thats not what upsets me. What upsets me is that 2 of my friends have their shit so together, that they are getting married. Its insane. Like Bob and Danielle got married this summer, but that wasnt a big deal because they were already grown up technically lol. Joe and Ash are like my age, Ashley is actually younger than me. Yet here they are, ready to spend the rest of their lives together. Where am I at this point... Im still stuck in highschool mode without the highschool part. It seems like everytime I pull myself out of the mud, I throw myself back into it in one way or another. IDK, fuck it, fuck off. I hate everything right now. Im a bitch. Im a cock. Im a nutsack. I dont give a fuck what you think, I know what Im going through right now, and you dont so fuck off if you want to bash me for bitching. You obviously dont know me very well if you dont understand how my life has been of late. The only thing good in my life lives an hour away, and I want her here with me all the time. She is the only one who makes me truely truely happy these days. And if you want to give me shit over that, well then cut your balls off, boil them, and eat them. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2006|09:21 am] |
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| | The Switch- Argyle Weather. | ] |
Another christmas down. I dont remember the last time I was happy on christmas day. It sucks. It just seems like Im never happy. I know this sounds selfish, but I havent gotten anything I want in like 4 years. All I asked my parents for this year was a new amp, and a cd. I didnt get either, instead I got a bunch of lame t-shirts that Im going to return, and socks. I have some tricks up my sleeve as far as certain people are concerned. My christmas will not be finished until I do what I need to do. If you dont know what Im talking about, then it doesnt matter. If you do know, then well... there ya go. Anyway, I hope everyone else's christmas was good.
merry fuckin christmas everybody. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2006|01:34 pm] |
Well, today has been interesting. I was woken up for lunch which for some reason I was pissed about. I also have a bitchin cold right now, so my life is kinda in the shit tank. Uh, Im trying to get something new started in Tragic Endings off time. I think me and the Gregs are gonna try to do something here, what I dont know. But it should be cool. Also I have recently realized how awesome Dragonforce is, so yeah... I think Im slowly turning into a metal nerd. Um, for those of you who havent been keeping up with my life without this, a lot of stuff has changed and whatnot. Im dating a girl from B-Town. So thats cool, Tragic Ending is on hiatus for school shit. Im doing nothing with my life as usual... uh yeah... eat dick. |
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| well... holy god |
[Dec. 24th, 2006|05:42 am] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dragonforce | ] |
yeah, its been forever since I've done this. Uh, so much has changed over like the last year and a half since I havent been on here. Theres too much shit to explain, and most people who would see this would already know all of it anyway. Basically its been one hell of a fuckin year and a half or how ever long its actually been. IDK, I think Im gonna start using this again now... cuz I miss it lol. Well just keep checkin this if you wanna keep up with whats goin down. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2005|12:54 am] |
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| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the new As I Lay Dying cd | ] |
Im not updating Lj much anymore... I use MySpace a lot now...... so you should go there from now on, its cooler than lj anyway.
Tonight I got to hang out at Kish with Sarah and a few other people, it was pretty cool. I bought a FUTON today and Im in the process of making over my basement for my room... Ive always wanted the basement to be my room, and now finally after years and years of trying to convince my parents, I think Ive succeeded. It was interesting trying to get it into my car with just me and Sarah... The last few weeks have been kinda routine, I go to work at night, and have the weekend off.... it kinda sucks.... but Im making over 500 a week so whos complaining? Weve played a few shows over the last few weeks, and we played our first show with Jason on bass... it was really good, and at Crowbar so that was an awesome place to debut our newest member. Well Fresh Prince is on, so Im gonna go.
http://www.myspace.com/8260528 <<<< myspace... its rad |
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[Jun. 20th, 2005|12:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Jesus (Hey Zuse) Shit FUck | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Self Against City- Tonight (the process) | ] |
Today was decent at best. I went up to Barrys with Jason and Kevin... that was pretty neat............................. I guess. A whole bunch of nothing else really went on, went to kish, hung out with Sarah... you know the usual. The show last night was cool... The Divining and Jena Berlin fuckin rocked so hard. I was a tad bit pissed that a lot of people just stood outside while they played, but hey thats their loss...
So tonight after I left Sarahs I went for a little drive... which took me up past Wal-Mart, and past a certain persons house... and I almost stopped to talk, but decided it would be better if I didnt so I kept driving back through the locust and yadda yadda yadda... and the song I was listening to was quite appropriate, and its the song Im listening to at the moment, so dl it and you will see what Im talking about just by the lyrics... well certain lyrics, there are a few that like dont fit, but a few that do.
here they are...
It starts with one, descrete desire.. to hold you close,
when everything stops making sense.
So we jump start the process, move faster were loosin faith.
I never meant to push you away.
Chorus- Tonight, Ill be searching for you.
Finding, my way back to
all the promises that we made.
When it comes, theres no reaction.
That could change my mind, cuz Ive been waiting for so long.
To restart the cycle and revive a memorie.
Give me just one chance thats all Ill need.
(Chorus)
The times that I was lost and alone.
I looked to you to pull me through.
Ive been meaning to tell you that.
You werent the best I ever had.
We have come so far.
But our eyes, might never change.
(Chorus) |
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| New Jersey... and 10 mph UNDER the speedlimit |
[Jun. 14th, 2005|05:08 pm] |
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| | I havent slept in 30 hrs... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | At The Drive-In- Napolian Solo | ] |
Hello everybody. Hows it hangin? Last night Me, Barry and Bobby drove 5 hours to New Jersey. We got there just in time to see the sun come up in a Dirty Harbor... it was fuckin rad. The trip there was amazing in itself. We listened to like nearly every good pop punk cd in my collection, stole a bunch of broshures from a truck stop along the way, got lost in a random town in New Jersey (we literally drove up and down the same street 4 times before we actually got directions on how to get to the ocean). After the dirty harbor we found an actual beach in an amazing little beach town... I cant remember the name of it off hand, but we wrote fuck really big in the sand... talked a lot about stuff regaurding the band, and the bassist issue.
On the way back I got pulled over for going 10 UNDER the speed limit on the left lane of a 3 lane highway. The speedlimit was 65, I was going 55. But you see... the thing is I was trying to be nice and let the police man pass me because I get really really nervous when I see a cop. And what does the asshole do??? ...he pulls me over, I guess you cant be a nice guy in New Jersey. Another thing is I literally hadnt seen a Speed Limit sign for like... 10-15 miles... so I honestly didnt know if it had reduced or what, and seeing as how I had a cop right beside me... I really didnt feel like getting pulled over again for speeding... and I still get pulled over for going too slow. WTF, I cant win... But other than that bullshit the trip was cool, but the drive home while we were in Jersey, I wanted to fucking kill every driver I saw because they all either didnt belong behind the wheel, were assholes, or cut me off. I fucking hate driving in that state now... everyone in that state should have their license revoked. The beach was cool tho, and Its an interesting story, and a new memory to add to the list of crazy random stuff me and my friends do at the spir of the moment. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|04:33 pm] |
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| |  SHIT FUCK | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Huey Lewis and the News- Power of Love | ] |
Hey everyone... its been a little bit since I updated. This past week has been pretty interesting. The show on thursday was amazing... ATSWR are quite possibly the coolest guys ever. I got my tattoo on Wednesday, and have been home 1 night since lol. We have a show on Saturday at the Moose, so everyone should come and rock with us and the Divining... because they fucking rule. Show starts at like 6ish, atleast I think it does... I think Im done now... this is getting annoying...
Remember tho... this saturday, the moose... 6pm... be there bitches |
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[Jun. 7th, 2005|02:01 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
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| | Glass Casket- Scarlet Paint and Gasoline | ] |
I GOT MY LICENSE BACK.... WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM BEYOND HAPPY RIGHT NOW |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|04:32 am] |
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| |  ...dog human... | ] |
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| | Bayside- Just Enought to Love You | ] |
1. What was the body of a guitar supposedly based off of?
a. the shape of a car
b. the shape of a woman
c. the shape of a medicinal flask
d. the shape of a clenched fist
Answer: b
2. When was Fender Guitars founded?
a. 1952
b. 1948
c. 1946
d. 1864
Answer: c
3. Who founded Fender Guitars?
a. Leo Fender
b. Robert Jules Fender
c. Henry Ford
d. William Fender Perscott
Answer: a
4. Who invented the 'humbucker'?
a. Silis Brigante
b. Shaun Lovert
c. Lawrence Steiner
d. Seth Lover
Answer: b
5. In what year was the 'humbucker' officially patented?
a. 1955
b. 1952
c. 1959
d. 1957
Answer: c
6. When was Gibson Guitars founded?
a. 1864
b. 1894
c. 1854
d. 1884
Answer: d
7. Who founded Gibson Guitars?
a. Oliver Gibson
b. Grisham Gibson
c. Orville Gibson
d. Nathaniel G. Foginger
Answer: c
8. What electric guitar initially designed by Gibson in the 1950s has gone through little change and is still one of the most utilized guitars even to this day?
a. the Explorer
b. the Flying V
c. the Firebird
d. the Les Paul
Answer: d
ok... that was...... pointless, but whatever
Ok Im still up, and stuff... Me and Shit Hands just got back from the relay for life a little bit ago, and yes there are still people walking around down at Kish at 3 am... people really hate cancer let me tell ya. Uh other than that today was kinda.. well I guess you could say balls... I was in a bad mood all day because I was thinking about how much damage so many fucks have done on my life... and I just wanted to like fall over dead or something. However lame it is, I guess it was my mood, but I was getting a little jealous of Sean... because he was like talking to Sarah and stuff, and its stupid I know, and I feel like a dick, but it kinda pissed me off more... it really shouldnt have because all they were doing was talking... but I dont know, I went for a walk and like ditched them for a little bit, and I was just being a little self conscious bitch... maybe I shouldnt post this, but I am, Im not mad at either one of them at all, it just fueled my being pissed at the worldness even more for one reason or another... but yes... it is late, and I am going to church today I guess... for like some "lets celebrate the Seniors in our church" bull shit. Oh well Im making my parents happy, which I dont do enough of so, whatever...
"push me out from the dark to a sky thats color'd blue, somewhere someones finding happieness while Im still here so hung up on you. Nothing is real, and I want you to know that Im not alright. Tear open my chest, Ill try not to flinch. I wont make promises, I wont make promises, you taught me that. Im still losing whats left of my self esteem, and Im still watching the slow fading of all my... daydreams.
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most, so Ill bite my tounge till it bleeds and I doubt youll even know. The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else, and Ive been tricked for so long by you, that Ive spent these past few months in my own hell
A failed appology a day too late, and now I see that all she really wants to see is me hanging neck first from a tree. What would you need me for? Youve got friends galore. All youve ever been to me is a waste of time, and nothing more.
Nothing is real, and I want you to know that Im not alright. Tear open my chest, Ill try not to flinch. I wont make promises, I wont make promises, you taught me that. I hate myself, for believing in you for this. And I hate myself for hating myself, just enought to love you... JUST ENOUGH TO LOVE YOU"
-Bayside |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|11:07 pm] |
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| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Forecast- These Lights | ] |
So today was interesting.. I spent the night at Sarahs last night, nothing really happened, we got back and went to sleep pretty much. Then I went into moonlight with Sean and his brother to get his brothers ears pierced, and so i could set up an appointment for my tattoo which im getting next week. A lot of shit has been happening with TE, and it isnt good shit either... Im not gonna say anything on here, because I honestly as of this moment dont know what is going on at all. We got kicked out of Aarons house because of some stupid red neck on a tractor complaining about us going too fast on the dirt road to the camp... needless to say his whole family almost got kicked off the property because of this dumb ass hick. But Aarons dad, being himself took it one step further and kicked us out of the house, and banned us from the campsight. It fuckin sucks. So we have no where to practice, and no sure bassist, and everything is just in a big rut, no its not even a rut its a sink hole, like one of those sink holes that swallows whole continents... But then we went to the jamboree and me and Jenn Zook talked for a long time on the bank beside the road... it was a good talk, and the first one for a long long time... hopefully we get back into having those talks because I miss being her big brother :-b. Uh after that Sean and I took my amp and such back to my house... because I knew if it stayed at Barrys I wouldnt see it again for a little while, so I brought it home... Then we came out to here.... Sarahs house, to sit and do nothing pretty much. She was even asleep when we got here, but thats ok. But I guess me and Sean are going to get going here soon.
IM GRADGIMATATED BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit FACED |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|11:01 am] |
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| |  PISSED | ] |
FUCK GRADUATION IN THE ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|07:47 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Orgy- Blue Monday (very good song, u should download it) | ] |
List of things that make for a good night
1. Sing Alongs
2. Barry giving intimate talks and in the background you here Jason Hosterman yell... "NAIGER"
3. Chopping down random trees.
4. getting kicked out of the comet parking lot for "loitering"
5. Greg talking in pig latin while cooking baccon
6. me making bacon in my boxers
7. male nudity
8. kevin going to get drinks with Bobby asleep on the back of his truck
9. locking ourselves inside the gate and losing the keys
10. not sleeping AT ALL!!!
11. Talking about sex...
12. talking in pig latin while making bacon
13. watching the sun come up with your best friends
14. listening to Aaron bitch about us cutting the trees down
15. setting things on fire
16. throwing rocks in the river
17. trying to make trees float down the river (it doesnt work)
18. sweet tea
19. "wow you can really taste the cheese"
20. Barry yelling at the top of his lungs at brysen and bobby to wake up and feed the chickens in pig latin at 3 am.
so yes, all in all... it was a good night, and im looking forward to many more nights exactly like it. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2005|10:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Your Balls Hitting a Brick Wall | ] |
Uhm balls... Today was ok I guess... nothin bad happened, and no one died so it was good. I really really really want this graduation ceremony to be over with. Stupid practice ass shit balls. Nothing too great happened today, went to Aarons for his graduation party thing, and then went with Sean Jim and Sarah to Kierstens... We had to leave there in a hurry because her parents were coming home... Which was quite ammusing because they were like 6 minutes away when we were leaving. Then we came back to Seans and watched TV... which is where I am now... so ballsack..
FUCK |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 29th, 2005|12:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fallout Boy- Sugar We're Goin Down | ] |
Hello everyone. Today has been odd, and I have thought a lot. 2 separate accidents have happened in the past 2 days, and its very surreal... 3 of which of the people involved in these are dead... and that is really really shitty. My heart goes out to the families of these people. Even to the one who I didnt like, (his friend sucker punched me in the back of the head...). Words of obvious advice, dont drink and drive, I am begging you... pleading, I dont want to lose anyone close to me...
On a lighter note I made out with Kevin Steele, and Aaron Pearson last night... lots of guy on guy action, and PORN!!!! YAY PORN!!!!
For real tho, no one die on me, I dont think I could take that... I love you all... (well for the most part... the rest of you can go fuck yourselves).
<3 |
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[May. 27th, 2005|11:17 am] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
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| | On Paths of Torment | ] |
So I just got back from graduation practice.... its worthless... ballsack
"Oh were grown up mature adults now, we get to wear cardboard and polyester on our heads." -Jared Reiman
Its great sitting by that kid in this, it just hit me, every class we have ever had together... we have sat like right next to each other... kinda wierd, or maybe its just because our names both start with R's...
Im done making these entries friends only so fuck... |
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| TO EVERYONE WHO HATES ME!!!! |
[May. 23rd, 2005|09:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | SICK OF THE SHIT! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hatebreed- A Call For Blood | ] |
Im making this entry public, because I feel it isnt something that should be kept only to my friends, and I hope everyone I hate sees it... So if you know someone who hates me, and you read this, tell them to read it:
Your reign of terror is coming to an end
And all your victims' pain will be avenged
Taker of innocence, I want your demise
Tear you apart for the unspeakable things you tried to hide
I fucking hate you
Every bone in my body will ache
`Till I destroy everything you love
And fill your life with their pain
Ten long fucking years
I waited to erase all the memories
And you can't fucking stop me
My vengeance is finally born
Ten long fucking years
Your reign of terror is coming to an end
And I have no mercy for your soul
Your blood is on my hands
A call for blood
For what you've done
No tolerance (for what you've done)
A call for blood
For what you've done
No tolerance (for what you've done)
All their anguish, all their pain
All their nightmare, all their misery
It's all coming back to haunt you
Your time is up and you've no where to hide
(I fucking hate you...)
(Ten long fucking years...)
(A call for blood...)
No fucking tolerance.
Let the blood spill
Vengeance is born [x2]
A call for blood.
- Hatebreed
I seriously am sick of going to school every day and having atleast one person call me a fag, or threaten me with my life. If you want a piece of me, bring it the fuck on, Im sick of this shit, and I dont give a damn if Im 18 or not, you wanna start shit with me, then do it... and Im not talking about bringing like 20 of your friends to kick my ass, I want it to be 1 on 1. Anyone who reads this, and knows it is about you, its an open offer. My address is:
134 Delaware Ave.
Lewistown PA, 17044
and on that note... FUCK OFF! |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|01:10 pm] |
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if this is the last entry you can see... I dont like you... My LJ is now Friends only, deal with it ass hole! If you want to be added to my friends list, message me on AIM and tell me to add you....
But dont message me if:
1. I dont know you well
2. I dont like you
3. Your an ass hole
4. All your gonna do is give me advice on how to run my damn life.
5. I dont like you
Fair? Fair. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 12th, 2005|02:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Death Threat- Brotherhood | ] |
Untitled Dead End Streets-
The last time I trusted myself to hold something I watched it disolve and slip through my finger tips. Beauty always leaves me fleeting. No one ever will know of the pain brought to this place. Where fire lit up the sky, like a nuclear holocaust of 2000 am radio stations. They burn to the ground and in its place we lay concrete slabs with the names of survivors of our wars. I dont want to hear the truth, I just want to watch you burn. So hold off the fire team, and turn up the gas as we watch our enemies cry out for help. They want death, but death wont come. The one thing I want you to know, is the one thing that can kill us both. Life is not a test, this is not a way of living. Hatred of everything you are and ever will be is so unnecesary but so satisfying. Gratifying ourselves with these nooses around our necks. Crying out for help with our own guns to our heads. We sing can you save us, and the echo answers back "save yourself from yourself". Grown accustomed to the voice of our own tyrany telling us what to do. After hearts have ben drained what do we have left to lose? |
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